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19 September 2009 @ 12:19 pm
There was litteraly nothing to do this weekend and yet I posted nothing.
Good job Gen.

Not much news, really.
Got a new bong this week. It's pretty nifty :)

Also, I am starting a fast.
Not entirely sure how long to have it last, but when I decide I will update this entry...

Starting weight-

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Current Mood: awakeawake
13 September 2009 @ 11:38 am
I just noticed the mall that I work at has its own wi-fi set up. I am SO glad that I brought my laptop to work today. Now I can stream music over the speakers AND check out the internet on and off. If you are one of the people on my FL that has an ED check out MO. I might be around there today.

Current Mood: busybusy
10 September 2009 @ 05:49 pm
Spending this week (eh. 5 days) at my parents house since they are spending the next few days in Port Aransas, Texas. Watching the cat, taking care of the house. There are two things that suck about this- cant smoke weed at the house & my mom FILLED it with food. Sweet jesus she bought so much food. Pizza, ice cream, chicken, pasta, tons of microwave stuff, & candy- a shit ton of candy.
I was going to munch on some peanut M&Ms but the first one that fell out of the bag was a mutant M&M. Blech.

Thinking about just drinking tonight, that is unless Julian decides to stay over... then we will just end up watching movies. I guess I will just keep watching Two & a Half Men and see how the night plays out.
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Current Mood: gigglygiggly
08 September 2009 @ 12:50 am
Do you prefer to spend a three-day weekend chilling at home or hitting the road?
Really depends on if I have the money or not. So there are two answers.

Money money bby::
I would love to take a weekend trip to Austin, TX with Julian!
(preferably around October 13 when a wonderful band will be performing there.)
Road trip. Hotel. Weed. Awesome band.
Seems like a wonderful time to me!
But unfortunatly- money is tight, so...

No money!::
Chillin' at home is wonderful! Watch a few season of That 70's Show with my boy and pulling out my hookah pipe &my pot pipe as well.
I really am a homebody so when me and Julian have similar schedules this is what we end up doing on our days off anyway.

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08 September 2009 @ 12:19 am
Watching a marathon of the A&E show 'Hoarders'. It's like a train wreck & I just can't stop watching. Jill, the woman in the episode I am watching, hoards food. I mean... she has PILES of rooting food... everywhere. Ugh. I feel dirty. At least it is better than the woman with many dead cats... I might be pretty fucked up, but some of this hoarding just blows my damn mind.

Right now I am spending the night at my moms house. Doing some MUCH needed laundry. My boyfriend, Julian, is at the apartment & works early so right now I have no one to chat with. I just changed into night clothes in the garage so my jeans could get a good washing. When I saw myself (in a mirror in the garage) I felt so disgusted. I don't know how I let myself get like this. I used to be thin. thin♥. Then- depression, medication, hospitalization, more depression, binge eating. Gross gross gross.
That is changing today. I am marking the start of turning over a new leaf with a new journal. I am twice my lowest weight.
Stats under cut.Collapse )

I will fall back into my old pattern. I starved and worked to get to 140.
My whole life has been a cycle of binge & starve.
Fat. Skinny. Fat. Skinny. Fat. Skinny. Fat. Skinny.  I am ready for this to stop.
I wont let myself fall back into the binge.

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Current Music: The TV show Hoarders.
07 September 2009 @ 10:08 pm
Just mad a brand new livejournal after a long time of being away.
Just setting up & adding people & communities that I would like to follow.

Real update to follow later tonight :)
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